Forks ( contemplating)

I have a good job. In some peoples opinion, a very good job. I also have a very good other job. I wouldn't call it a side job, because I actually like doing it. But what are these jobs? The first is in my field of study. I got a degree, I worked a few jobs, and then I was fortunate to get a job that everyone says you should have. Its stable, its within the government, and it pays the bills. But I cannot see me doing it for the rest of my life. Not in my currently capacity at least. My 2nd job is good. I do more of the things that I like to do. But its commission based, so I depend on others doing what they say they are going to do to get paid. Its not a terrible place to be, especially since I have other means of income.

Now for my dilemma...

I feel like I should be doing something else with my life. Whatever that is is still a mystery to me, but I know its something. Furthermore, there is so much that I would love to do. But I'm sure that at some point or another, most people may feel that way. So this isn't even the issue.

The issue is that I cannot fully pursue anything else in my current state. I have a 9-5, I have another job that can occupy all my other available time. I am very active in my frat. And life in general. And I realize that these are not excuses. I hear people say you have to make room for your blessings, and I truly believe that and I know I have a blessing coming. I just need to decide what I need to remove from my life to make room for it. I have a lot going on, but how do you decide what you should move on without when you don't necessarily have a bunch of negative things in your life? And there it is... the actual problem. How do I choose? How can I know im leaving the right things behind? I could be leaving the thing that will eventually make me truly happy behind because I made an impulsive decision.

I have faced a few notable forks before... west or tracy high, howard or San Jose State, Psych or Comp Sci, buy or rent, cali or dc, but there was always a clear solution after careful examination of my options. Not this time...

Until I figure that out, which fork to take... I'll be right here, coding and selling houses...

In the Begining (writing)

I've had a blog for a few weeks now, but never knew what to write about. I've written and completed at least one, but deleted it all for one reason or another. I want to write things that are insightful, that can contribute to ones life, rather than just being something to read. I want my words to hold a deeper meaning. I want it to be funny, but serious; entertaining, but at the same time be something that would invoke thought.

But first things first... I don't have any readers. LOL, at least not yet. So for now this is nothing more than an outlet. For me to say what I want. And that is all it will ever be. I want to impress, but I don't care enough about your opinion for me to suppress my own. I'd love feedback if this is ever read, but I will not be writing solely for the purpose of getting a response. This is a public diary, in the most heterosexual way possible =0).

If I offend you, know that it was not my intention, but don't expect me to apologize for my opinion. I will not, unless i have blatantly attacked someone or something, be publishing an apology.

sidenote: I'll probably have some sort of (verb)ing in all of my titles, as that's a good way for you and me to sum up what I'm writing about. Shouts out to Cov(Dot)Gov, who started that trend i.e.; hf (be) pimpin